about

about things i care about

 

Our lives are made of moments. And all these moments, emotions and experiences are connected in an invisible net. In my art I try to capture these moments as I experience them.

 

My drawings are made of multiple layers of fine delicate lines with which I try to convey my way of seeing things. Fine lines are a necessity, since I am not able to draw any other way. My hands don’t have the full functionality of a healthy artist. I was diagnosed with MS a few years ago and I do have mild problems with using my hands for precision tasks. Maybe because of that I love to get my work as precise as I can get it. Gentle lines are the connections nets of my world.

 

Color is something that makes my eyes smile. Isn’t it the best thing in the world to experience a garden full of plants and flowers? Or a box full of pastels… or a palette covered with blobs of paint… I very often need to resist the urge to use more colours, I have to stop myself from adding more and more to my palette. Old Masters were able to achieve incredible depth and range with just limited palette. I stil try to learn how do this.

In my paintings I like to capture the softness and fragility of people and objects. Even the most harsh environment and character have something lyrical about them and this is what I am searching for. I cannot draw or paint something that doesn’t connect with me. Everything has a story that can touch you and even if it doesn’t, you can make one up and add some poetry to your world.

 

Ceramics is a different story. Up till now I only created practical things, like pots, mugs and tiles.The production process is something I am quite certain about. The method to throw pots on a wheel or make tiles is always the same with some variables. Working like that can seem to have something mechanical and automatic about it, with less mindful decision moments I have to make when drawing or painting. Being busy with clay has a grounding effect. When the painting doesn’t go well you can always go back to basics and play with some clay. Some people do gardening, I do ceramics.

 

All these areas of my creative life are connected with each other as the moments in my atelier pass by. Ideas come and go, some stick for longer than others. I really hope that you, the viewer of my work who took the time to read about it, will find something that gives you as much pleasure as making art gives me.

“In my music, I’m trying to play the truth of what I am.

The reason it’s difficult is because I’m changing all the time.”

 

Charles Mingus

Socrates and self-knowledge

 

The more I learn the less I know, because I only learn that there is so much more.

 

Socrates said that he didn't know nothing. For 5 years I studied his and other philosophers thoughts to become a smarter person and get my MA in Philosophy. It only became more difficult.

 

I did learn that 'every person needs a Why to live for' (Nietzsche). And that I know what I love, I know my "why" . Making Art and thinking about Art are the only things I want to bother my brain with. And yet doubts do emerge and struggle with myself is one of the constants in my life. Did I do well enough? Did I try hard enough? What if this was my last chance and I blew it?

 

Art is lonely

 

To create I need to be alone. I see loneliness as something positive and necessary to make good art.

Art is lonely also because every person has a different encounter with art. We can share our thoughts and feelings about art, but there will always be something untold that we are not able to communicate other than through art.

 

 

the MRI scan of my brain

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